I hope your week is going well! I am FINALLY feeling better and my cough is almost gone. Being sick for three weeks is the craziest thing, but I’m glad it’s over – *phew* Anyway, apparently it’s Mean Girls Day and I had no idea (I totally created the title before I knew lol!) since pretty much everyday is Pink Wednesday lol. Today, I’m styling the prettiest pink lace dress and sharing the real reason behind my huge closet purge!
Chicwish Lace Dress c/o | LC Lauren Conrad Heels (old – similar here) | Mary Frances Floral Handbag c/o | BaubleBar Headband | Gorjana Rings c/o | House of Sillage Lipstick c/o | Too Faced Eyeshadow c/o | OPI Nail Color c/o
Initially, I wasn’t so sure about this dress because I thought the neckline was a bit too high. However, after trying it on, it was love. The color is just so pretty and I love that the entire dress is crochet. The flared sleeves and ruffled hem are also really beautiful touches. I feel like this dress could work for a variety of seasons. Obviously it would be lovely for spring, but I also think it’s nice change for fall and that it could be paired with a really gorgeous coat for winter. Since the dress is such a standout piece on it’s own, I went more minimal on the accessories including a nude heel, sparkly headband and dainty rose gold necklace. I did add this incredible beaded handbag (a statement piece on it’s own!) though but I think it’s looks great with the dress. I actually took it with me to NYFW but wasn’t able to shoot it, which was unfortunate…but I’m getting a lot of use of it at home 😉 It’s even more beautiful in person, if you can believe that!
So I mentioned in my last post that I was doing a huge clean out this week. A few months ago, I did a massive closet clean out and ended up selling and donating bags and BAGS of clothing. I, however, did not go through my fall/winter items, shoes, handbags or jewelry so I’m tackling that this week. I actually do small clean outs once a month just to keep everything under control but something inside me snapped recently and I just feel the need to rid myself of any clutter…physically and figuratively. I know this might seem like such a normal occurrence but this clean out in particular is almost symbolic in a way. If you come here often then you know that I have been struggling for awhile to rid my life of the negative energy that I felt was becoming overwhelming and all-consuming. I made the hardest decision of my life a few months and ended up cutting ties with nearly my entire family. It has been so hard on me and I’m still adjusting to this new normal. For so long, I believed the lies I was told and lived to please everyone else. It wasn’t until I realized that it was actually ME that had allowed them to treat me this way and make me feel inadequate. I realized that I am in control of my own happiness, my own success and ultimately, my own destiny. So I did what I’ve wanted to for years. I said goodbye to those toxic relationships and hello to me because I deserve this. I deserve to be happy and I deserve to live my life on my terms and be the person that I’ve always been afraid to be. For years, I put others first at my own expense and by making this decision, I put myself first. I’ve learned to be selfish with my time, who I spend it with and who I let into my life. When I let go of the negativity, I finally felt free.
This is where my closet comes in. I’m definitely not a hoarder, but I’ve always had trouble “letting go.” I always kept things “just in case” and when I think about it, I actually think it was because I was trying to fill the void that my family had caused. Having things did not make me feel better but instead caused more anxiety. Add in crazy long work days and clutter starts to build up. I don’t know about you, but I absolutely cannot stand clutter of any sort and the tug of war I was experiencing was incredibly frustrating. I knew that the last step in my healing process was to stop neglecting myself and let go of the clutter that I let build up over time. I am so excited about the new chapter and I know it’s going to allow me to focus on myself as person (my health, my diet, my self esteem) as well my career with the blog and some big changes that I will be making within the next six months.
I know my posts have been all over the place lately so I appreciate that you all come back week after week to encourage and motivate me as I move through this difficult transition. I definitely didn’t expect to write a novel for this post or even explain why this closet clean out has so much meaning but sometimes things just happen haha! Wish me luck (I’ve got a few more days of this madness) <3
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